Wednesday, 15 April 2015

I Chose My Kids

After I finished my studies, I happened to land a job at a private college as an architecture lecturer. I didn't plan on becoming a lecturer in the first place because I wanted to practice architecture and work at a firm. Only after I took the job I realized that I loved teaching! And I knew that if I worked at a firm things would be even tougher if I got married and had kids because of the workload and stress it comes with. So I decided to stick to teaching. 

Once I had Juhd(my first baby) working became quite hard for me as I couldn't quite focus at work. I kept thinking about my baby at home(even though my work place was just like 3 minutes away from home!) At that time my husband was the one who took care of Juhd while he was working from home(I know, wow right). I would get to see them during lunch break and even that wasn't good enough for me. I wasn't happy working anymore. I thought of all the precious moments of Juhd's first-everything that I might miss(first word, first roll over etc). And it broke my heart every time to see Juhd cry as I left for work in the morning.

So after I got pregnant with my second baby, I made a vow to quit my job of 4 years and be a SAWAHM(stay and work at home mom,yes I totally made that up) after I give birth. I just couldn't bear the thought of leaving my kids for work ever again. I want to be there for them every single moment as they grow. Because truth is, I only have one shot at motherhood. And I want to do it right. My kids are going to be this small only once. I will have plenty of time for work in the future when my kids are all grown up and independent. 

When I told my husband that I wanted to quit he couldn't be happier. He had always preferred that I stay at home from before we got married but it was always me who felt the need to develop a career. He was always supportive of my decisions regardless.

So here I am, working from home while I get to see my kids grow in front of my very eyes. Alhamdulillah. Words can't explain how contented I am with my life right now. I can spend my days teaching and educating my kids just like my own mom used to(I never went to kindergarden/pre-school). I get to wake up every morning only to worry about entertaining my kids and what would be our menu for the day, now that I cook everyday bahaha!*domestic goddess alert!* I love being a SAWAHN. I finally feel like a supermom. Its like a normal mom, only awesome-er!

Yes, that's Qomar's head and Juhd's hand in the frame :D

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CalaQisya Khayla Jubah
Sofina 3
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Till then! Any SAWAHM's here?